So, we just left Cádiz where we spend almost a month getting to know the people that we worked together with in the hostel and then the guests that flew out before you even got a chance to remember their names and where they were from. The latter usually came first, recognizable by sufficient inbreeding of white Europeans, and I would be the asshole who would call out for people according to their respective country. In any case, before anything else they were people, people of all shapes and sizes, they were travelers, musicians, artists, clowns, statues, students, weirdos, goobers, learners, teachers, bums, lovers, alcoholics, orphans, hippies, stoners, writers, legends, bourgeois, gypsies capitalists and anarchists, bosses and workers, they were dancers and cooks, they were bored and excited all at the same time. And following that they were products of the places they came from: they were italians, germans, russians, polish, swedish, israelis, irish, english, australians, spanish, french, canadians, dutch, portuguese, mexicans, chileans, peruvians, argentinians, north carolinians, alaskans... each one their own twisted individual with some soul stricken story to tell. Sometimes they had been gone so long that you could wipe the nation off their face, and not even they knew how to identify themselves. A name will do. Some were quiet and spent time writing and reading on the terrace, others were more talkative and bought beers all around to make friends and ignite conversation. Some played guitar and when they played it would be humble where no one could hear them, while others played loud in the kitchen for people to dance and sing to. Some guests had a tinge in their eye that read they had been traveling for years and years of their life and nothing was the same. It said, "I am a guest here and in my own home. My home is nowhere and that is where I am going." It was hard getting to know those people because just like their home, you were impermanent.
We got to know a friendly few at the hostel who we spent most of our time with. Everyone had their own planless plan and it was nice for once not to be asked what I'm going to do after college. People barely thought to ask you what you were going to do after this. Because this is it. And if you're not a serial traveler, most people plan to stay until they decide to move on. It has made me feel more comfortable about not really knowing, even though things are vaguely planned out. Because even if you do plan, you’ve got to know there's no guarantee. For instance, finding a place in Istanbul has been a combination of friendly people and less friendly people who lie and assimilate (raise) prices for Americans and don’t trust the Spanish to rent a flat because they simply can't be trusted. Then there’s the whole being female thing, which we will see the consequences of soon enough. Despite it all, we’re on our way to eliminating such inequalities as race, class, and gender so that we can have a place to sleep in Turkey.
Accordingly, I have dropped all my expectations of anything happening or not happening just so I can enjoy the ride. I met some really beautiful people in Cadiz from all parts of the world, and when we left we all smiled and said we'd see each other soon. I said it because I believe it, but others may not have. Why put my name in your book? What for? Don't cry, don't be sad. This is life. It is all fleeting. And they were older and wiser and they knew what they were saying. And they were probably right. But I'm still young and vivacious and I'll eat all the positivity that I want so I don't stomp on my own heart all at once. Cadiz is a beautiful place, which I've been in love with for quite some time. This time, we had our own apartment with a pretty magnificent view of a giant fuck-off church. We were also set across an apartment for old folks, a humbling view of walkers and televisions behind curtains too loud for anyone not to go deaf (unless you already are). Well, odd as it seems, it really made a quite peaceful atmosphere for a good night's sleep, or portion of the night if you include time for dancing with mosquitos and bed bugs.
Here's the view from our flat...
Sunset on the beach, still warm enough to swim